Be holy as I am holy. -GOD

When I was 18yrea old,(1974 the Jesus movement days) I was in a full time ministry called the Agape Force. It was in this ministry that I saw a few 2 week “revivals.” They were very powerful times in my life and they formed a deep desire in me to see revival sweep this nation. People were weeping and repenting at the alters, it was so beautiful to me, my heart soared. This is what I was created for!

During one of these one small revivals, the Lord visited our ministry team in a powerful ways. Actually the prayer meeting before one of the revivals began, the Lord came suddenly, it caught me and all of us off guard. One team member began to cry out in repentance, as though he was afraid to hide his sin. He was exposed and he confess and repented. This swept through the meeting. The roar was great. I couldn’t hear what anyone was saying nor did I care. The King of Kings and the Lord of Lords was in our mist. I worshiped at His feet with tears and a loud voice. Then there was quite. We all stayed very still. There was silence, no one stirred. I don’t know how long this went on, but eventually we looked at each other through puffy eyes and with hoarse voices. WOW! Six hours had passed and we thought it was only an hour or two.  It was as if time was suspended. We were startled and changed. That evening at the meeting, His presence was great and repentance was preached. The people filled the alter and wept before the Almighty. It was God at work.

The next day we could hardly wait to gather for prayer. As we did the Lords presence came even stronger. He came in His Holiness. Whoa it was terrifying. We hit the floor face down and began to scream. I can’t explain it, we roared loudly, it was deafening.  I remember clawing at the carpet in an effort rip it up so I could crawl under it. I thought the carpet would somehow protect me although I knew it would do no good. I wasn’t hiding from Him because of sin in me, there was no sin, but hiding simply because His Holiness is so astounding. I felt unclean even though He had cleansed me by His blood. So great was His purity. Crisp, clean, fresh, deep, magnificent, words are worthless to describe it. It still makes me cry when I think of this experience, Him so Holy . I somewhat know, on a small measure, the scene in Heaven described in Revelation.

This revival only lasted two weeks. The concept of Lordship was introduced and the pastor testified that Christ had been His Savior but he was now making Him his Lord. ( today in what I know now I thinks this is wrong doctrine-but I will have to explain later.) he is either in you or He is not.

Twenty years later this same pastor had a affair with his secretary and lost his whole church, wife and family. And because it was the biggest church in this town,(25,000people) his sin had repercussions throughout the city. My heart broke! I was sick! I wept! Oh the horror of sin, how it destroys. How it defames the name of my Master. The world thinks His is a joke and has no power to deliver one from sin. Lord I’m so sorry. I pained at my very heart for your heart. Do you see how a professing Christians life does immeasurable damage to His name.

Are you a professing Christian?  Do you wrestle with sin-lust, pride, anger, unforgiveness, bitterness etc.?  One of these, some of these, or all of these? Or other ones?  You cannot overcome these things no matter what you do?   You may even make progress in some of these areas by strong resolve and determination, but you feel you're hanging on by a thread.  The slightest lack of discipline would send you falling.  Is this you? 

If this is your life, you have been relating to Him outside of you.  He is NOT in you and the evidence is that you have NO power over inward sin. 

If this is you -you must honestly confess your position, your sins, and repent deeply for the sham christiany you have lived and completely turn over rulership to Him.  This may take some time.  My husbands repentance lasted for 8 hours.  And some months before He got to end of himself completly to allow Christ entrance to rule from within his heart.  You have to confront every lie and justification that let you remain in you sin for so long.  But I can guarentee you, when you come to the Lord with a total honesty-no hiding or justifying of your sin- the Lord will be right their with you to help you repent.  You have to trust the living God to come and dwell in you thus delivering you from all your sins and self rule.  If Christ accepts your repentance He will make entrance into your heart. 

If you have been relating to Him outside of you for 20 years or so, you may not have a big experience.   You may sense Him the same. His voice will be the same.  Remember He is the same whether He is outside or inside of you.  But if He is in you now, the huge difference is will be when your are tempted.  Now when you rebuke that thought in Jesus name you'll sense a power from within you rising up to vanquish this foe-and it is Christ Himself!  You'll also feel peace and rest, but this time they will last.  And you'll be very tender to Him.  You may cry alot which is good.  You heart will cry abba father.